The Runaway....

For T....

What’s my name?  My name doesn’t matter cos’ most of the time people don’t remember it anyway and the other half of the time I change it.  So let’s just pass on the name thing ok? ....
I guess what you call me is a runaway.  That doesn’t get it either cos’ most of the time we’re running to someplace as much as running away from it; Running to somebody who’ll understand and listen without judging us when we fuck up.   We’re supposed to be allowed to fuck up right?  At least that’s what I thought.  It’s how you learn.  You’re working so hard to be daddy’s little princess and mama’s pride and joy that sometimes you just wanna scream and be left alone.  And then you scream and nobody hears ya and ya just wanna find a place where it’s ok to be you.  You can be scared or confused or angry or just…quiet.  Where you can just be you and it’ll be alright cos’ its you that you want them to love..the you part of you.  That’s why my name doesn’t’ matter because until you love me, neither do I.....

//signed//

The Cat's Purr

The nerve of some people! Dating via text is NOT OK!

Current mood:cynical

Ok, so let's just cut to the chase...since when did it become OK to ask a person out via text message? Yeah don't answer that cuz it aint! The nerve of some people, especially ones that is supposed to 'know' you...somewhat. Now dude asked me out or to "kick it" on more than 1 occassion via text. I didn't answer the first ones initially cos' I felt he didn't know any better. But then one day I decided to tell him why I didn't answer such texts. Mama always said if a person offends you tell them about it, if they do it again after that then they did it on purpose so you may proceed to light their asses up. Hell, they are subject to what they get. So, tell me why his ass asked AGAIN via text? Yeah don't answer that one either.  And he thought the shit was funny! Its hard for me to believe I didn't get my point across the first damn time. Yeah, yeah I get that he "maybe" shy and all of that yada yada blah blah but I mean seriously, do I look like a hoe? Do I even remotely carry myself like a chicken-head or hood-rat? Then why oh why does he continue to TEST MY GANGSTA!?  Now I don't consider myself old fashioned or conservative (if you think I am, pause and take a look at the photo gallery and come back...I'll wait) cos' I am far from it but damnit I am a fucking lady...and one that curses! Its no harm in picking up the damn phone and asking me out. It takes all of 8 seconds to dial the number (2 seconds if I'm in ya Fav 5), 6 seconds to let the phone ring and hear my voice, 4 seconds for me to think about it and give U a yes or no answer, 60 seconds for us to actually confirm the date, 10 minutes to shoot the shit and 3 more seconds to bid fare-thee-well. All in all it takes well under 30 mintues for the full transaction so I don't wanna hear that "shy" bullshit.  If U find it so daunting to follow these easy steps than maybe I'm not the one you desire to kick it with. And whatever female gave you the impression that this shit was ok, may that bitch rot in hell with gasoline thongs on! Now back in the day..waaaay back in the day, I would have made an excuse for his ignorance and accepted his invitation but like I said that was waaaay back in the day as a D.I.T. (Diva-in-Training). IF I said it once, I've said it 100 time this year, This Kitty WON'T be taking NO shit from the male species this year! I've tried to be lenient, understanding, compassionate, tolerant, sweet, soft and laid back but damnit this year I'm going straight OBAMA-----Its time for a CHANGE! Yall mofo's need to get some 'ack-right' about ya and yes I said 'ack-right'...that's Act-right for the relationshiply challenged. I see right now yall don't believe fat meat is greesy! AAAhhhh the nerve of some people. I swear yall gone drive me to drink...I think I hear a cocktail calling me right now.  Its sad to see men still don't know how to approach and/or treat a lady these days no matter how old he gets. They seem to learn after they've gotten old, gray, toothless and impotent but that's like tits on a bull...useless. I'm convinced that there are only 2 perfect men in the world and that's my Daddy and "Him (insert smile)". I also see that this dude in question blantanly doesn't know a Queen when he's in the presence of one so.....OFF WITH HIS HEAD!
Hmmph, he don't KNOW me like dat!

//signed//
The Irritable Cat's Meow

Stupid People Irritate Me At Times

A woman tells her daughter, "Homosexuality is wrong & it's not God's plan 4 u."

Bitch how do YOU know what God's plan is for anyone? Did yall have a personal discussion about HIS plans for someone else? How do YOU know that being straight was his plan 4 your ass? How about talking to him about YOU instead of someone else. Why would the maker discuss someone else's personal business with you exactly? How do You know he didn't plan for you to be a nun or a waitress or something? Simple beotch! I get too upset when folk demean the sexuality of someone else. I mean really, do you have anything else to do besides judge? Hold up...don't answer that b/c its apparent that you don't. People never cease to amaze me!

//signed//
The Cat's Meow

Ten 4/Over & Out

It's appearing that guys these days are too busy to ask a girl out but out but have just enough "free time" to ask a girl over. I'm so weary of this concept. I get accosted on rare occasions by men and when I say rarely, I can count the encounters on one hand and half of the other in the past 7 years. If they do TEXT or call it's always to come visit or for me to visit them. WTF is that all about? At first I thought it was how I conduct myself but after further querying & experimentation I come to find that it's not all me. I've even tried dressing different (non sexy), non flirtatious (if at all) and totally not be myself and the dudes that encounter this side of me STILL call for an "over" and not "out". Am I that bad? What is the deal with meeting me/taking me OUT to have some fun? I know I'm not a perfect beauty queen (in my mind I am and that's all that counts) to everyone but I know I'm not the sister of Frankenstein. My personality is huge yet I am still humble and always conduct myself accordingly when in public. Is my light that bright that they are afraid of it? I mean really, what gives? I don't want to come to your dirty house and meet your boys. I barely know YOU! I don't want you in my house messing up my pink throne. I barely KNOW you. Why aren't they trying to KNOW ME? I see them sitting back all the time scoping the scene, shying away when I introduce myself, asking their friends about me or however they come about me but when it's time to put up or shut up I get the, "You wanna come over?" When I ask anything otherwise it's the "I'm really busy during the day" bullshit. Yeah I know it's just cuz they want the ass but GOTDAMNIT, DO ALL DUDES JUST WANT THE ASS?! It's really disappointing. I know there are many times when one's schedule is booked with necessities throughout the day. I'm one of those people. I work full time, go to school full time, I run my own business for what it's worth and I do community services but I do make time for people I wish to know. Why am I not afforded this same privilege? Am I not worth knowing at all besides the boom-boom room? When I don't put out it's a put off and that's cool but all men can't be the same. I've tried evaluating myself and altering a few things but now I know it aint that I give off this "I wanna screw" vibe. I've asked my friends that are known to be honest to watch me and give an honest opinion, male and female, and they don't see that vibe either. So what gives? Am I really that bad. The ones that do take the time out to KNOW of me somewhat is scared off, tell me how great and ideal I am just to disappear. It lightweight saddens me. I'm not trying to marry the dudes, I just enjoy a male's companionship every once in a while. Come to think of it, the one I professed my love for and to in February hasn't taken me out. We've been out but moreso under each other. After years of this, does he not want to be seen with me either? This suxs major ass. I'm giving up. Having a mate obviously is NOT for me.

//signed//
The Cat's Purr